GET BACK UP!

I know it's been a while since I've posted in my video diary, so I wanted to give you a recap. This past 6 months has been a roller coaster of emotions, with some Very HIGH high's, and some very LOW low's. December of 2015 marked the beginning of another major jump in my recovery process, when I made up to 11 unassisted steps/shuffling. It was the most unbelievable feeling, as you can well imagine. Then Jan, Feb, Mar, progress seemed to be soaring, and I felt that by May, I'd be FLYING…. LOL OR the very least hovering above ground… haha

In the midst of that momentum, my trainer and I Nancy thought that for the month of April, it would be a good idea to work out every day. We would document my "status" before, and at the end of April, (before my book launch) we would re-test, and see where I was at.

I worked out every day - feeling SO excited, because that in itself was a hurdle for me - but I thought - MAN! if I'm making unassisted steps now, where will I be at the end of April?? As April came to a close, and my book launch prep ramping up, you can just imagine the excitement that was coursing through my body. Being SUPER excited about all the great things God was doing, I was convinced, that all my hard work and determination would be rewarded.

Well not only did I not improve, I actually declined in my progress. I started having more back pain, and couldn't work out as much. Emotionally I had taken a beating. The discouragement, and self-doubt started to overwhelm me. How could I work THIS HARD at something and go backwards? This outcome, was definitely NOT one I expected, and I was devastated.

However, trying not to focus on that disappointing setback with my walking progress, I just kept looking ahead at the AMAZING things that were JUST around the corner… The release and launch of my book Going Farther. And it was AMAZING!!

This is a season GREAT BLESSING and excitement, and I will continue to walk through the doors that God is opening up for me, with great expectation . However, this has also been a season of MUCH learning, and finding BALANCE was definitely a steep learning curve.

I have been back now for a month, and I have to confess I lost some of my determination to work out, OR MAYBE it was, that I just needed a "brain break??" Whatever it was….. I am ready to take back control. SO, after some R&R and refocusing, I'm back SWINGING, and more determined than ever.

My prayer is, that if you are struggling or questioning yourself, and wondering CAN I DO THIS??? That YOU TOO will find the strength to keep going. WHO'S WITH ME???

LET'S GET BACK UP!!!